Just keep swimming!

As my husband drives us to the fertility clinic, I can't quite describe my feelings and mood.

I have been physically preparing for the embryo transfer for several months, with exercising more, eating better, and of course those lovely hormones, but mentally I have been ready for this for much longer. I had my moment of freak out yesterday, but today I am calm and ready. We won't find out anything for a couple days, but today is about a new beginning and creating something beautiful. I am going to take it all in, and stay positive throughout.

I am grateful for the long drive though. It gives me time with Eric, time to reflect, and time to really appreciate all of the support we have gotten so far. I don't think I could have started this without my support system.

I am no stranger to hearing someone say "I don't know how you can do that" or "I don't think I could do that." Both of these are honest reactions people have had when I've told them I'm going to be a surrogate, and honestly I laugh when I hear them. It does take a truly special person to be a surrogate, and I definitely think not everyone can do it. I've explained before why I am doing this and with all of the emotions and feelings leading this decision, I could not do it without my friends, coworkers, and family behind me.

Thank you to everyone single one of you that has sent me a text, an email, called, a Facebook message, a hug, and said good luck! You guys are amazing, and I truly appreciate knowing you're there.