So this blog is all about my life, and how it's "changing" everyday. I want this to be a place where I can put down my thoughts about my journey, tell you how it's going, but most importantly, I want this to be a place where you learn about me, my journey, and maybe something about yourself, too. So...here it goes!
Like I said earlier, this started with an innocent conversation with one of my previous clients. Her mother had been a surrogate when she was younger. She told me about the daily injections she had to do, the mood swings, and how she didn't understand why SHE had to be the one to do it. Honestly, it started off a very negative conversation, but as I think back now I'm kind of glad it did. It wasn't all lollipops and kisses, it was truth and that's what I needed. She went on to say that after the baby was born and she started to understand why. She started to understand the sacrifice her mom made, and how selfless she was. Don't you just love a happy ending?! So this conversation stuck with me, more than my normal conversations with my clients did. I just couldn't shake it, so I decided to take to the internet. I am the type that researches until I feel like I can competently and truthfully explain something. So fast forward 4 weeks, and I am ready to talk with my husband about this...finally. After hours , and I mean HOURS of researching and deliberating and researching some more I knew I needed to let Eric, my husband know what I was up to.
I can still remember where we were sitting, the tone in my voice, and the look of shock in Eric's eyes. Talk about being blindsided! First reaction...NO! Second reaction...Umm are you serious?! NO! You are not carrying some guys baby! Take a moment to think what your first reaction would be if your spouse came to you tomorrow and said "hey, I was thinking about becoming a surrogate or I think you should be a surrogate." Yep, that's what I thought. Knowing my husband, I dropped it. He needed time to let it sink in, and do his own research. Thankfully we were getting ready to take a 16 hour trip with no kids. As you can imagine, lots of pros and cons lists were made during this trip. If we were going to pursue this seriously, we were going to look at all the angles. And we did. It was on this trip that we decided, this was worth looking into even more.
After we got home from our mini vacation, I talked with 2 different agencies. One out of Minneapolis, and one in Madison. After a couple weeks of deciding, we started to fill out our application for the The Surrogacy Center in Madison. The application itself was pretty lengthy, but of course it was because well frankly this is not a light situation. I spent many hours writing, thinking, soul searching, and writing some more on my application. My application is what tells my story, what I'm about, and why I am doing this. I would be lying if I said I wasn't emotionally, physically, and mentally drained in some sorts the day I sent my paperwork in the mail.
Fast forward another few weeks...time to actually go talk with the lovely ladies that represent The Surrogacy Center. WOW! Talk about a nerve-racking car ride. I had no idea what to expect, even with all that research. My brain was on overdrive, but thankfully I had Eric with me, holding my hand, telling me to breathe. We walked into this building that was very professional and welcoming at the same time. Kind of refreshing. We met with two ladies that knew the ins and outs of the journey. The whole meeting was kind of blur for me. I remember bits and pieces, but only certain things stick out. One question in particular...WHY? Why do I want to do this? Why DO I want this?! That was the million dollar question...
Well I am going to end this post with my answer. I think every surrogates answer is a little different, but in the end kind of the same. I still struggle to put this answer into words. To give a couple a child they couldn't otherwise have will be one of the greatest things I will ever do! I know the love I have for my own children, and to help a couple have that love is indescribable. It's not going to be all lollipops and kisses, but it will most definitely be worth it!
This is just the beginning of my journey...and I hope you stop back again to learn more about it. I am bursting with information about this, and I LOVE talking about it. As you can see I am an open book, and will pretty much answer any questions, within reason of course. As I continue this blog, I hope that I can answer a lot of your questions, and also bring some light to the not so common surrogacy journey. So stay tuned for my next entry...
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